So You Care About Suicide

Do you? Facebook says “someone is always listening” but no one has answered their phone in ten years. Shall I text you then? “I’m thinking of killing myself.” Will you roll your eyes and think “god, this bitch so dramatic.” I’ll come to your house? Well, you won’t answer the door because your house is…

This Is What Anxiety Feels Like

Every day I stand at my mirror. I don’t have anxiety, I’m fine. Flips hair, I am just fine. Every day I get in my car. I’m fine, I am just fine. Is that a snowflake? My stomach tightens. Does that car want over here? My mouth gets dry. Does that truck see me? My…

Dear Doctor Nobody

I think it is funny when sanctimonious, know it all’s go ahead and decide that I have a mental illness. “You must be bipolar” Oh, must I be? You do realize that doctors that diagnose these illnesses have gone to school for years, right? You have known me for six minutes, you read something I…

When No One Loves You

This is a terrible feeling of desperation and grief. I picture an elderly lady in an old age home, forgotten by her children and friends. Alone she sits, for days on end, hoping that her child will visit. They never do. I picture a child reaching for a mommy too busy to share a hug…

Downfall Of Family

I find it really sad that a woman who was pregnant at nineteen, and subsequently raised her child alone, thinks there is a downfall of the family unit. I thought that homeschooling children would strengthen a family unit and create more trust and harmony at home. I didn’t even hear of homeschooling until a few…

There Is Just No Pill If Your Life Sucks

Notable conversation: Me: ugh, I am SO depressed, maybe I should get some meds. Doc: you are not depressed. In the waiting room you giggled with a stranger. You told someone their baby was cute. You cheerfully chatted with at least five random people. Me: but I am just so unhappy. Doc: that is not…

You Remember You

Do you? Who are you? Are you a wife, mother, sister? An artist, writer, painter? A doctor, lawyer, accountant? I guess if you’re lucky, you’re a well balanced bit of each? Well la-dee-dah, I bet no one can say they’re well balanced. We are all stressed out, we’re all in debt (if you aren’t, I…